Monday, September 27, 2010

I'm Kinda Lost

I've recently found myself in a bit of trouble with my little blog. I come on here just to babble on, vent about whatever is bothering me and share a thing or two. Well, I made some comments the other day about stuff going on at work. I have since discovered that those people I made comments about have read my little rant. I was approached by a supervisor to maybe apologize or explain the situation. I'm not sure how I feel about that. On one side, if it was me and I read those words, it would feel like a slap in the face. When put that way, yes, I would apologize. From my own perspective, I feel a little upset that I have to mix my work and personal life. I have been very careful about keeping those things separate. No one had a clue that I was going through a separation until I needed a form filled out and change of address. I do not really want to censor myself. The whole point for me was mentioned above. I just want to go all emo. Have it all expressed and then forget about it. It's selfish of me I know. I'll have to think about this some more.
Aw well. Tomorrow is another day. Happy Monday everyone.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

I've Been Busy

I looked at my calendar today and realized I might need to get out more. I have marked on it all the premieres of shows I wanted to make sure I didn't miss. I take solace in the fact that I don't just sit and watch television. I actually work a fair bit on my little projects. Since I no longer have the hardcore cable and switched to basic, I watch a lot of my shows online. I believe I have mentioned this many times. What is sort of funny, not haha, but weird funny, is that I have only really had a computer for about five years. In the grand scheme of things, that is really not a terribly long time. It has become such a huge part of my life. I have to be very careful. In a heartbeat, I can easily become that crazy cat lady that never leaves her apartment. Since being on my own, I've decided to make a few changes to my lifestyle. It is shows too:

When I first moved in my little apartment, I purchased some new jeans. They were a size 34-35ish. I can't really remember and the little numbers have worn off. I weighed in at 170lbs. Now, my jeans are a 29-30 and I'm weighing in at 135lbs. I am thrilled.

A few of my changes are to make sure I eat all my food groups. I'm not educated in the means of proteins, fats, cholesterol etc etc. All I know is that if I fail to eat all my food groups in a day, I am off balanced. So today for instance, I start with coffee. That does not really fit into a food group, but people's lives are saved if I'm caffeinated. I switch on my computer, (bit addicted yes I know), settle in with my knitting or drawing and watch some shows. Today I watched a few episodes of The United States of Tara. Wow. I love this program. When I start to feel snackish, I begin to think about breakfast. I has toast with peanut butter and fruit. I have never been a big breakfast person. It was always a fight to get anything into me before school. After my breakfast, I start to tidy up a bit. A few hours go by, I start to feel hungry again. I had a bowl of cereal. Depending on my mood it is either Lucky Charms or Cheerios. I can't help it. They are magically delicious. I went for a walk to pick up some groceries. The story is about 20 minutes away at a fairly brisk pace. For my lunch I made a toasted cheese, bacon and tomato sandwich. I finished my socks:

I am currently working on my pattern now. I'm stuck at the chart part. I have found a program online that helps, again with the computer. I just have to be patient and work through it methodically. Patience is not one of my main characteristics. Then I start thinking about my supper. Tonight I had angel hair pasta with some veggies tossed in, with some wine of course. I watch Criminal Minds and The Glades and worked on a toque for my mom. She would like one to give to one of the neighbourhood children who have been helping my parents with some outside tasks. When it is complete, I'll be sure to take a picture for you. I think it's rather cute.
If I get snacky, I help myself to a muffin, trail mix with dried fruit, popcorn, or whatever else I have on hand that I do not need to prepare. The only trick I can really offer is to just eat when you are hungry. You have to learn what your body asks. When you are hungry, eat. When you are full, stop. It sounds so simple but all these other emotions come into play. That bored phase. That one is the killer. Keep your mind active and it helps. That is why I have all my little projects on the go. My hands are constantly moving. If I'm not knitting, I am drawing or painting. I also read a lot. When I need more, I start playing my video games. Reading through what I did today, I realize that I'm not really that social. I do have a few friends. Sometimes I do wish I would go out more. I just have more things I need to work on. I do like how I am. I have lots of weird little quirks. I like those too. I have come to the realization that I shouldn't work from home. By going to work, allows me to go out and interact with people face to face. I am rather good at it. I enjoy reading people and trying to decipher what it is that they need. To be honest, I'm rarely wrong. That's probably why I like playing cards. To be a good card player, it is not the cards that win the game but the person holding them. Anyway, I'm rambling. The point I'm struggling to make is that I need my mind and body to be kept busy or I turn into veal.

Enough about food. Want to see my love seat?

All I have left to do is fasten it to the underside. Every time I went to do that this week end there was a fuzzy creature sleeping on the seat. With the full moon, the cats were absolutely insane this week end. When they finally went to sleep is when I just worked quietly.
I should get bonus points for level of difficulty enhanced by curious kitty:

I almost sewed him into the seat several times.

Napoleon has no fear of sharp objects if they are shiny.

We are quite pleased with ourselves!

In a very long nutshell, that is what I have been up to this week. I might not have made much sense during my little monologue. I have all these thoughts roaming around my head. I think faster than I can type. Sometimes I forget you can't read my brain. I leave details out. As long as I entertained. I do hope you all had a great week end. We will chat again soon. :)