Little Steps..

I am making progress! I had pasta for supper tonight :P. Who knew that little bit of pasta in hot water would explode like that? Guess what I'll enjoy for lunch tomorrow?
I also hung up a few pictures:


It starts to feel more homey each day.

One did not work according to plan though:

Yes. That is a new hole in my kitchen wall. Good thing I know how wall putty works.

Look at my corner:

Not much left on this side of the room to unpack. No, I did not just move it to the other side. No. I will not show the other side of the room.

To distract, check out what someone emailed to me:


hehe. I hope you all had a great day. See you later :)

Ever So Slowly

This is starting to resemble a home. I cleared away more boxes; found some homes for some other items and moved my bed to the other wall. I just cannot sleep facing any other direction. I'll know if it's in the right spot tomorrow morning. I think I spent the majority of last night trying to figure out which direction my bed faced. I also pretended to "drive" my bed from the old apartment to the new one. For example, I travel north, west, north, east, south, etc., etc.... I'm a blast at parties.

I also prepared my supper and my lunches for the next few days. Would you like to see?
Too bad, I'm showing you anyways...


I had this to drink:


Here is my progress so far:

It might not look like much, but I can now access the balcony, so that is progress!

Can you spot the Furries?


That is pretty much all for today. I'm going to watch some sort of made for TV movie. Night everyone :)

I'm In Like Sin

The cats and I are now in our new place. Last night was our first night alone. We did very well. There are a lot of new noises that we will have to adjust to. I can hear my neighbours at some points in the day. The fridge makes a different kind of sound.My other fridge did as well, but this one is different. Just other things to get adjusted to, which we will, eventually. I think part of the deal is to just try and find a place for everything.





Sorry for the sideways shots. I am seriously trying to remember to correct them before posting.

Rebel and Napoleon seem to be having a great time.


All sorts of new hiding spots to discover.

I was going to put yarn in there

Rebel's new game is to knock over all the boxes. The best time for this fun is around 03h00. We will be having a discussion about this later when I get home from work. Napoleon is trying to figure out how to open the door to the balcony. That seems to be holding his interest for the time being.

The cable guy came today. I am now with my beloved television and internet once again.


Which is great. I can give my poor nails a rest.


I've been trying to take all sorts of photos so you can all see what is happening. More is to come. I am actually enjoying myself. I like trying to arrange everything and think of things I can do to make things work more smoothly. At this point, the kitchen seems to be last on my list. I was never one for the kitchen anyway. It houses the mix. That will change. I will learn how to cook and prepare food once again. I had this ability before, it just seems to have gone amiss.

It will be sushi tonight.


So tonight's big plan is to watch a little television; catch up on emails and games, then think about preparing lunch for myself. Sounds like the beginning of a routine to me. :)
I hope you all enjoyed your week ends.

OMFG!!

It's a helluvalot new going on in my life. My astrological sign is Cancer. We tend to not really like change. I think it ties in to our homebody nature. Anyway, I'm moving over the week end to my new place. It's a bit smaller than what I live in currently, but it will just me and the two fuzzy children, so no worries. I've just finished calling the cable and phone people to set up some for the installation in my new place. The phone one is the easiest. You don't even have to be home. They do it remotely between such and such a time. The cable and internet is another issue. I have to be home on a certain between morning and evening. Helpful isn't that? We actually started moving my gear on Tuesday. All the anxiety of a new home is slowly going away. I can start to visual how I want things placed. I'm trying to scale down and take only what I need and crave. Turns out, that is a bit difficult than I imagined. I also took a big girl step and decided to do something about my credit card. I'm getting a loan with a way lower interest rate and more predictable payments. This helps me out a lot!
They showed our little apartment to a possible tenant last night. This bothered me huge. I hate when strangers invade my personal space. Please refer to the link on Cancer, lol. It felt weird to have someone looking at your stuff and trying to picture their stuff in its place. It brings home the idea of all this change going on.
I'm actually starting to relax a bit with regards to my new home situation. I can visualize what will happen from on. I have lived on my own before. I did quite well. I do know what I'm in for and I look forward to the challenge.
Speaking of new.........

New boots! I had to retire the other ones. The zipper could no longer serve it's purpose. These are quite similar to others with the only difference being they are taller. They are uber comfortable.
I've also been in a weird quieter mood when it comes to music of late. This is my new favourite song:


I think that about covers it. I'm going to head in for a shower and then watch Modern Family. I'll of course be packing up more stuff during the night. I hope the week has been to good to you all. See you later :)

Moving

I'm not really a big fan of packing, although I am good at this task. The apartment looks so weird. All of my life for the past seven years is tucked away in boxes scattered all over the place. I never realized how much liquor we had stocked away.

Sorry for your necks folks. In my hurry to upload the photos, I didn't recognize the photo was on the side until just now.

It's also a very good thing I knit as much as I do. As a result, I have a great source for packing:

It sure beats looking for newspapers. I'm not really one to read the paper anyway. When I get curious about something or need to learn whatever everyone else is discussing, I usually go online. I am very big into instant gratification. Click, click, information.

I have been doing a little knitting. This is my new pattern:

It has the Decepticon symbol from the movie or cartoon, Transformer. I'm quite proud of this little project. As soon as I remove the chart from the 27 pound furry prison, I'll make it available on Ravelry.

I'm quite of proud of myself. You never really know what you are capable of until you are thrust into the midst of it all. Being attached to someone for so long, you lose sight of yourself. I'm very thankful (and yes I know I have already said this) that this divorce is going as well as it is. I've never experienced anything like this before. I have no idea what the rules are. I have no clue what is expected of me. All I really want is for this to be as painless as possible. We do experience our rather tense situations. We lash out in anger and in frustration. I don't like that. I get physically ill from the conflict. We are learning as we go. As long as we don't lose sight of the fact that we do love each other and do not wish any form of harm or discomfort, I'm sure we will fare out alright.

I'm actually at work now. I have nine minutes until I can go home and rest. That word home is funny. It is my home, but it is so different now.
I hope you all have a great evening.

So Much to Say......

.......and not sure how to say it. I've found an apartment. I really like it. It is in the town about 20 minutes from I live at the moment. It's clean, quiet, well taken care of, and they allow pets! I guess the other positive in this is I can afford it. It has been quite an emotional week. I'm not sure how to talk with him. I keep asking if he is ok. Can I do that? Would it be alright if I did this? We are working on a new way to talk each. Let us just suffice it to say, it is a work in progress.
All sorts of things keep circling in my mind. I'm going to have to figure out the oven. It may have other uses besides holding pans and pots. I need larger boxes for my shoes. The ones I have now simply will not do. I knew I had a lot of shoes, but now that I'm going through everything, the number is a bit a overwhelming. I've done a lot of packing. My life is all scattered around the apartment in various boxes. Who knew you could pack up seven years of stuff and memories.
There will be a period of adjustment for both of us. I find I am still saying things like, "we did that...". I've been a part of a couple for so long, I'm not sure how to work the "I" into conversations yet.
During this entire traumatic and bizarre experience, I've noticed that I have a lot of really great friends. I knew they were great before, but this is just so comforting. They don't judge. They just listen and over me reassurances that everything is going to be ok. I am a strong person. I can do anything!
I'm in a much better mental state compared to last week end. I'm very proud of myself. There is a long way to go, but I'm confident that everything will work out in the end. Looks like I am at the start of another adventure.
I hope you all have awesome plans for the week end, even if these plans include laundry and unwinding. I'm going to watch Life On Mars (UK version) and figure out how to pack some more bizarre items I have accumulated over the years. It's a good thing I have such a large stash. Yarn makes for wonderful packing supplies.
Night everyone!

Entering Phase Three

So what do you do when it feels like your entire world has fallen apart. Well, I suppose you cry a bit, actually, a lot. You enter into a shock phase. You wonder what you did wrong. All these possibilities circle in your crowded mind. Maybe, should have, could have; end result didn't. It could have been worse.
I will no longer be some one's wife. It was a hard decision to reach for either side. It could have been worse.
So now we start to plan. We didn't think we would get to this phase. Nevertheless, here we are. I'm in the process of looking for an apartment. He is helping me. I'm very grateful for that. I suppose I couldn't ask for a better divorce. I don't want to be one of those bitter exes. I have no desire to age before my time.
I've actually been writing this over a lengthy period. I'm finding that with each day, I feel a little better. Not much better, but an improvement can be seen. I'm not crying all day, just at certain parts. I'm starting to feel a little strong. I still have knots in my stomach. I'm eating. Not much, but I'm trying. I just don't feel hungry. With my body though, I've always just eaten when I'm hungry. I'm being very watchful though to make sure that I do eat properly. I'm drinking my water. It's a start.
I called my mom. She was surprisingly very helpful. I wasn't sure what she would say exactly. But we chatted for a bit. It did help.
I still feel ashamed. I feel embarrassed that I couldn't do this whole marriage thing. It feels wrong. Very surreal. We will manage. We will continue on. We did have a lot of fun. We did a lot of wonderful things together. We helped each other out. I learned a lot from him and he also from me.
I do have a lot going for me. I do have friends. I have a job. I'm very capable of many things. I am going to be OK! We both will.
Thanks for listening. I hope you all have a good night.