I've been awake since 02h30.
After I have had a mini break from work, like a week end for example, it is nearly impossible for me to return to work fully rested.
The night before, I usually just have a little nap. This way, at least in theory, I might be tired enough to sleep before I go to work at night.
It is not for the faint of heart.
Right now it is 4h30.
I have a freshly brewed tea.
I gave the fur babies a little snack to avoid the extra loud meowing/screaming for food that will undoubtedly wake up the rest of the household. Perhaps even the neighbours. Rebel has been quite frisky lately. I can hear birds chirping. The odd car driving by. Some brave soul is even running.
Here I sit at my pc debating what I will do this morning and thinking about the week end we just experienced.
There many highs and an odd low point here and there.
Mother's Day is such a weird holiday.
I'm grateful my Mom is still on this Earth.
It is sad in a way that we do not have that special sort of relationship that everyone else "seems" to be celebrating.
Have you also been inundated with Happy Mother's Day post on your social media sites?
She received her card in the mail last week.
She was thrilled.
There seems to be a slight change in our relationship.
I'm never really sure how to respond when she pays me compliments. This was not a common occurrence when I was growing up.
So I smile, say thank you and ask how she is.
Saturday was a garden day.
We went to my favourite place to pick up my herbs and plants for this year.
I found this one plant which caught my attention.
It is advertised as something that repels cats and mosquitoes.
Little Man helped me put all of my finds into pots with the exception of my tomato plants. They will be a little later as the ground temperature is still a little on the frosty side.
After we found the plants homes, we needed to water them. This brings me to one of the many highs I experienced.
We had placed a lot of our equipment either in the garage or a sheltered place just next to the building for the winter.
When I went searching for the garden hose, I came upon this amazing discovery:
I was resolved to water with my bucket and watering can. Hubs to the rescue managed to free the hose and still keep the nest in tact!
Mommy bird gave us the stink eye and an earful for quite some time, but I think all will be ok.
On top of that, it would seem as if someone is using the birdhouse that Hubs created.
I suspect it might just a storage locker.
Saturday was a balmy 20 degrees Celsius. Unfortunately Sunday night was only 1. My plants are now taking up residence in the bathtub until Wednesday. At least according the weather network.
Like I mentioned earlier, Rebel was even a little frisky. At 20 years of age, any interest he shows in whatever it is he sees, blows me away.
I had no idea what Rebel was looking at. Whatever it was, he was in that position for at least ten minutes.
I guess he was sleepy afterwards for he had a nice nap with Jackie.
Then here comes the low point of my week end.
I thought it would be nice to visit Hubs' mother. Wish her a Happy Mother's Day.
We brought with us a little plant because she enjoys them and not likely to get one for herself.
We had a nice little visit.
I give her a hug good bye, say Happy Mother's Day again and she smiles, leans over asks when will I be a mother.
I felt like the ground was slipping away.
In that 30 seconds, I was so angry, sad and disappointed.
She knows about the struggle that I and my husband are experiencing in this part of our lives.
She was there when I thought I couldn't experience that aspect of motherhood, then started to, then had it snatched away so quickly.
I have no idea what on Earth was going on in her head when she let that bomb of a question erupt.
When will people learn to just keep their mouths shut about these sort of questions.
I couldn't say what I really wanted to say.
I ended up just crying because that is my go to reaction when I get very angry and cannot express myself properly.
So for future references folks, do not ask people questions that have to do with the reproductive system, relationship expectations or physical appearances.
Do not start questions with
I don't mean to be rude but......
If this is personal you don't have to answer but.......
I'm just saying...
It's not necessary.
If you are not asked for your opinoin, keep your mouth shut.
This took my longer to write than I thought.
I can now hear other people getting up and going to work.
The birds are a little quieter.
The remaining tea in my cup is cold but I will chug that down and start the coffee maker soon.
Jackie is fast asleep again.
I can hear the members of the house snoring and the furnace kicking on to take the chill out of the house.
I am going to hit publish and call it a day for my productivity.
Have a good day everyone.