I’m sure many of us have gone through quite a time this year. Many of us will be happy to see the end of this year. I have mixed feelings. For me this year has brought about some clarity. I feel like I have done so w good and learned a fair deal. Now I’m a little restless. When I go through these feelings of unease or just an overwhelming sense of restlessness, I consult a deck of cards.
I started consulting Tarot when I first began high school. That was when I first experienced a great loss. I have had to say good bye to a lot of people, but none so difficult a good bye as my father. After my father lost his battle with Cancer, my little family moved and tried to start new in a completely different town, with a completely different lifestyle. I was not onboard. It felt like a disservice. I was very lost and hard trouble finding my way. At the end of the day, it was a learning experience. What helped was trying to put my thoughts and faith in a higher being.
I was raised in a Catholic upbringing. It never felt right. I read the book. I listened to the talk. I didn’t feel connected. There was something missing. It felt like I had no control and the worse was that it was hinted that you are not to have control. Put your faith into a higher power. Does that sound right to you? Following that line of thought, where do we fit in? Where is our sense of responsibility? This is why I look at other beliefs and faiths. I think we need to take more responsibility for our actions.
If we examine the pandemic that has shaped our year, what is the common denominator? In order to come out of COVID-19 whole, we need to help each other. We need to try and follow the guidelines that experts, scientists, doctors have tirelessly explained. Wear our mask, social distance, wash our hands. Unfortunately, many of our community members strongly disagree with these guidelines. You hear a lot of the same argument with respect to their rights. Our rights are important. No one ever disagreed with that. The part most people forget though, is something taught in school. Your rights end the minute it affects the rights of your fellow community members. This is where we need to recognize, that we need to take responsibility for our actions. At the end of the day, we are responsible for what we put out into the universe.
This need to take responsibility can be horribly overwhelming. It becomes more so, when you look around and it feels like other people do not share the need to help and protect our more vulnerable members. This is the tricky part. I’ll share what I did to help me through the difficult times of this year.
I revisited my cards. I like them because they help better examine my actions and thoughts. I shuffle them. I deal them. I examine them for connections. My go to arrangement is to shuffle, cut, and deal three cards to represent my past, present, and future. Who is to say if this is for real, or authentic. It gives me something to focus on. It helps me realign my thoughts. It works for me.
So after all is said and done, I shuffled and dealt my cards. I think it is time for me to refocus on my art and try something new. I’d like to go back to school. I aim to do so but, online. This is more doable for me. I have a course picked out. Now I am waiting for more information.
I’m looking forward to 2021 and all the change and excitement it will bring. I will take with me my memories and skills and apply them to new endeavors.
I wish you all the best for the holiday season. I wish you health, happiness, and strength.
See you all later!
