tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71443067447438811402024-03-06T00:32:29.610-05:00Hi There!Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.comBlogger567125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-86221291236435931212023-11-27T23:20:00.011-05:002023-11-27T23:29:33.148-05:00Apprarently I'm a Legacy? I have been receiving notifications that I need to migrate over the new system. I am going to give that a try since for the life of me, I cannot seem to remember the password. Which seems silly as here I am writing this little blurb. This content will no longer be available.Maybe that is a good thing.I am in a better place than I was when I started this blog. I needed Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-36388285806717588262023-08-26T00:11:00.002-04:002023-08-26T00:20:21.627-04:00The Complicated Relationship of a Mother and DaughterIt has not always been easy. I can actually only only a few happy memories. I know she tried her best with the tools she was given but, I resentful of the tools she refused to use to try and make things better.My mother died early Thursday morning. The official cause has not been released but, evidence points to complications from a stroke. She was a woman who had many Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-35853122683062160352023-07-09T01:46:00.000-04:002023-07-09T01:46:05.809-04:00Everything is quite all right!My Maple Leafs ended a 19 year chrse and managed to make it to the 2nd round of the playoffs. Quite a few people on various social media sites still downplayed that achievement! I honestly cannot understand why.I don't know if any other die hard fans felt the same way but, it was an emotional experience for me. I can't really explain why. I guess I had just come to expect an early defeat. So, I Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-4734596261519650772023-04-15T23:06:00.002-04:002023-04-15T23:06:49.917-04:00Just some thoughtsI do a lot if thinking.
A lot, like, all the time, all the thinking.
I learned recentky that there are people who are able to keep their mind blank.
No constantly running monologue.
Do you ever experience that?
I've never had that quiet.
There's always a constant chatter in my mind.
I'm curious though,
what would that be like?
I was also thinking about idiosyncracies.
I'm not sure if I'm saying Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-14414217357039925992023-02-28T22:48:00.001-05:002023-02-28T22:48:29.382-05:00Everything is OKI mean that.
Everything is ok.
I've just been doing a bit of thinking.
I learned that in order foe me to be really OK, some boundaries need to be set.
I can no longer allow people to make me feel bad.
Nor can it matter who they are and what they are suppose to represent.
I spoke about it at length woth Jo.
He always sees things a bit differently and it helps to get that perspective.
It was one Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-86551747326727009112022-12-17T20:00:00.002-05:002022-12-17T20:00:55.490-05:00Try As I MightI am just catching my breathe now!
I completed the last of my exams for this term, this morning.
I never really know how well I fare. You place the words test or exam in a sentence, I tend to get panicky.
It's honestly ridiculous.
I have studied and practiced and repeated the process. I can know the information forward and back, yet I cannot get rid of those anxious feelings.
I just do the best Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-57188452321429784852022-09-27T00:47:00.001-04:002022-09-27T00:47:05.954-04:00Been a Minute First.
I am doing well!
My mother-in-law is adjusting as best she can. There is still the aphasia to contend with. It makes conversation interesting. To be homest, I have no idea how much she understands. There is very little short term memory. Once in a while, there is a flash. She will be present. Comment about something that actually relates to what is happening then, disappear again. Just my Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-22917863064367714852022-04-27T23:28:00.005-04:002022-04-27T23:28:55.295-04:00My mother-in-law has now lived in our home for three months. There have been many ups, and of course, downs. Routine is very important, as is the need to prepare for the unexpected. My observation skills are put to good use as is my ability to make sound decisions. This is especially important when you are the primary caregiver for a vulnerable person. I also cannot stress enough, not to allow Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-41708189745803668342022-03-08T23:05:00.001-05:002022-03-08T23:05:11.405-05:00I’m all rightWe are all moving forward one day at a time.
Each day, there is a little progress.
Each day, there may be a few steps taken back.
And you know? That is okay.
We have a routine.
We wake up.
Take meds.
Wash up.
Have a little breakfast.
Watch a film.
Today was a really good day.
I thought I would share.
Today was the first day since my mother-in-law had her stroke, that a little of her shone Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-48560262290327057522022-02-08T23:18:00.000-05:002022-02-08T23:18:01.688-05:00New NormalWe successfully moved Hubby's mother into our home. She has been here for a week and we are starting to develop a routine. She requires 24 hour care and I am pleased to say I can provide it for her. Hubs provides the physio that was lacking in the hospital. After having been knocked back to the mentality of a three year old as a result of her stroke, she is just now re-learning how to move her Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-58457907578261393732021-11-17T00:57:00.001-05:002021-11-17T00:57:59.775-05:00Good Days and Not So Good DaysWe have been keepong very busy.
Our plan is to move my mother-in-law into our home a little after Christmas.
It was not a decision entered into lightly.
Our reasoning, based on what we have seen at her current location, is that we can do better.
We can give her the one-on-one she needs to re-develope her motor skills.
We can provide more active entertainment to enrich her life.
We have the time. Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-21780863731033082532021-10-02T00:02:00.001-04:002021-10-02T00:02:42.172-04:00Happy October!We are still enduring the pandemic. To be honest, I hadn't really thought it would last this long. To be fair, our lifestyle has not changed very much. We have never really enjoyed dinning out. While we love watching films, it just seems more enjoyable at home without all the distractions of fellow movie goers. Work has also kept us rather occupied. I have been working more hours but, the change Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-88452287390073444262021-08-29T23:06:00.000-04:002021-08-29T23:06:05.291-04:00Wonderful DaysI seem to have taken an unintentional hiatus.
A few changes. For the better.
As I sit here listening to the rain we desperately needed, I was thinking about them and remembered I've been pretty quiet.
A few months ago, I was approached by another nursing home, in need of personal support workers. At first, I declined. I just wasn't ready for any change.
I was much too comfortable. A few months Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-60073850985048972952021-07-23T00:01:00.003-04:002021-07-23T00:01:44.997-04:00Thinking an Awful LotI recently celebrated my 43rd birthday.
That is what started all of the thinking and reminiscing.
At this age, my father was diagnosed with Cancer.
He died six months later.
I have no fear of mortality.
I try to do what is right and most of the time, I succeed.
When my father was thus age, the world was quite different.
Our telephones had cords.
Cable was a huge deal.
Divorce was an isolating wayJocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-22636236935405345362021-05-07T21:41:00.002-04:002021-05-07T21:41:34.459-04:00I Was JabbedYesterday afternoon I received my first dose of the COVID vaccine. To be honest, I can't tell whether the effects I am experiencing are side effects, pyschosomatic, or side effects from when I'm about to get my period. I've had a headache all day. Felt tired. I've been sneezing a fair bit. That may just be allergies. Either way, I'm all right.
I have my mid term tomorrow. This is a nerve wrackingJocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-78145976240331353292021-05-01T23:10:00.002-04:002021-05-01T23:10:31.538-04:00Happy May!I am so pleased with myself. Normally, I am my own worse enemy. Second guessing most of my choices. It's ridiculous really. Even the tarot cards I enjoy, lean towards the belief that I should follow my gut instinct mire often. It's true. I should. Very rarly, do I ever regret a decision made with my natural instincts.
I have completed my first month in my business program. It has been challengingJocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-6512193032511675682021-04-09T10:40:00.001-04:002021-04-09T10:40:24.002-04:00Good Morning!I have gone back to school! Turns out it wasn't just happy nostalgia. I really do love the smell of new school supplies. Maybe that's why I enjoy creating art?
I am pursuing a BA on business. It will be a two year adventure that will hopefully find me in a another realm of employment. At the moment I feel a bit overwhelmed and rusty. It's difficult to believe this is the same brain that helped meJocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-60470515224088096302021-03-16T00:50:00.002-04:002021-03-16T00:50:46.700-04:00Little StepsI always try to start my day with little steps.
I find it help.
First item on the agenda.
Getout of bed.
Take the dogs out.
Feed everyone, including myself.
If these items on the list are checked off, it's a good day.
I try to do something that brings me a bit of joy.
Maybe I'll replenish the birdfeeders.
I enjoy seeing my little feathered friends.
Then if I'm able, I try to take to snap a few Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-25383456254636227172021-03-06T23:16:00.004-05:002021-03-06T23:16:57.679-05:00Honest TalkTalking is so important.
It brings to light what is habitually hidden in the shadows.
Hidden in self doubt and in shame.
If we talk,
we help one another.
There are all these websites, podcasts, memes, advertisements
that promote the slogan: Let's Talk.
The slogans need to continue further,
with more information.
Let's Talk Openly
We cannot keep hiding behind perfection.
We are chasing, competingJocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-9119396923177306452021-02-20T23:15:00.000-05:002021-02-20T23:15:19.297-05:00Random ThoughtsWell here we are, near the end of February. There just seems to be so much going on. Then you start to take stock and realize, no. Not really. Maybe we are all just becoming hyper aware of our surroundings. How can we not? We must continue to be vigilent, careful, and sympathetic. Not everyone is managing very well. Some struggle and it manifests as anger or it can be seen as depression, or maybeJocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-253780564729155802021-01-20T11:12:00.001-05:002021-01-20T11:12:44.751-05:00Victoria Jumper Part 2 I frogged the Victoria Jumper I was knitting to begin afresh. That is something that is not unique to my own knitting practice but, I’m one of the few that will start from the very beginning, no matter how much progress I have made. If something is slightly off and will prevent me from wearing it in comfort and drawing joy, then there is no sense in continuing. So, let’s learn what went Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-87050161945982651562020-12-14T08:53:00.001-05:002020-12-14T08:53:47.876-05:00Happy December I’m sure many of us have gone through quite a time this year. Many of us will be happy to see the end of this year. I have mixed feelings. For me this year has brought about some clarity. I feel like I have done so w good and learned a fair deal. Now I’m a little restless. When I go through these feelings of unease or just an overwhelming sense of restlessness, I consult a deck of cards.I Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-17237137140317905932020-11-10T09:08:00.002-05:002020-11-10T09:08:41.206-05:00The Dust Has SettledAfter every thing that has happened, we are well on our way to a new normal. I have a strong feeling it’s not only my family that has been going through some changes. The man that was in charge, for what seemed an eternity, has finally been replaced by someone who speaks in full and complete sentences. It must be something, to see the entire world celebrate change. I don’t recall in my Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-36886016740923689752020-10-30T08:59:00.000-04:002020-10-30T08:59:09.799-04:00So Much Change and Not So Much Our little family has experienced quite a lot the last few months. A little while ago, Hub’s Mom suffered a pretty devastating stroke. She made it through but not without some major pitfalls. She lost control of her right side. At the moment she is an hour and a half drive away from us in a wonderfully staffed hospital. I really cannot say enough good things about them. The last time we Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7144306744743881140.post-808344436936431342020-09-21T12:36:00.000-04:002020-09-21T12:36:09.347-04:00Cross StitchNow that the days are getting cooler, we are not sitting outside as much as Jackie and Charlotte would like. We are finding things to amuse us indoors.Today was a cross stitch day!My Deathabilly is making slow but steady progress. I just have to hang in there!This week, I dried the last of my herbs.Luna did not care for the device.I’ve also been knitting.Margaritaville sock number one is Jocelynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06972837636046693693noreply@blogger.com0